Don’t be an energy waster!! (Energy series part 2)

Ok, so in my last post which was a part 1 of a 3 part series about energy, I wrote about empaths, gave you some cool science behind our energy, and also told you how to protect yourself from people with negative energy.

Today is part 2 of my energy series and will challenge you to really think about if you’re TRULY giving energy to what you want most out of life.

Here are two simple questions you need to ask yourself.

What (or where) is your energy going to?

Who is your energy going to?

There are no right or wrong answers. However, any answers you do come up with are valuable insights to allow you to determine if you are on the path you are seeking, or if you need to start making some changes.

Your energy should be going into three things;

1. YOURSELF,

2. YOUR RELATIONSHIPS (friends, family, co-workers,)

3. YOUR GOALS/DREAMS.

First and foremost you need to be putting energy into things that make YOU happy. This is your ME time. Exercise, hiking, dancing, coffee with friends, reading, listening to music, having a spa day, playing sports, whatever it may be, you need to do more of that. Don’t make excuses about not having time. MAKE TIME. We all have the same amount of time in a day. If you need to wake up an hour earlier or re-plan your schedule around your kids then do it. I can’t stress how important putting energy into yourself is. You can’t put energy into numbers 2 and 3 if you aren’t putting enough into number 1 first! You should always come first. Put energy into you and watch how much more your energy improves.

Second, think about your relationships right now. This can be with your significant other, your friends, your family, co-workers or all the above. Are you getting what you want out of those relationships? If you aren’t, you may not be putting enough energy into that relationship, OR you’re not giving off any positive energy so your attracting more negative energy back to you. If you want more communication then you have to be the one to start communicating more. If you want more effort being put into planning dates or spending time with friends and family than you have to be the one committed to actually planning that. Don’t give the excuse, well they don’t hit me up so I guess that’s it. Nah, snap out of that. If someone is valuable to you then put in the effort. When the effort becomes too much and turns stressful and draining to your energy, THAT is when you have to cut that person off.

Lastly, your energy needs to be going into your goals and dreams. I don’t care how big or small these may be. Want to lose 10 pounds? Then what are you doing daily to bring you closer to that goal? Did you make a change to your diet? Are you going to the gym? Did you take the stairs instead of the elevator? These all are choices you make where you determine what your energy is going into. Dreams of starting a business? How are you getting closer to that dream? Are you reading books from top entrepreneurs? Asking for advice from people on social media? Researching the steps to market your business? Again, this is where your energy needs to go. If it isn’t, you are wasting it. Very simple.

I find far too often that many people seem to be living in auto-pilot. They fall into a routine and thought process that inhibits growth and without coincidence, unhappiness. There is nothing wrong with routine, I find routines helpful especially if you have anxiety. However, if that routine is not bringing you what you want out of life, or bringing you closer to your goals, then break the fucking routine!

You have every right to chase happiness, but make sure you’re putting forth the right energy into your chase.

Make today the day you start investing in yourself and taking your energy seriously.

I promise you it will be worth it.

Thank you for reading, and thank you for being YOU.

Have a great day. 🤙✌️😎

Living as an “empath” and what you can do to protect yourself from negative energy (Energy series part 1)

Are you someone who lives with a heightened ability to feel what others are feeling?

Are you someone who’s mood can change by who you surround yourself by?

If you answered yes, then you are someone who may be an “empath”.

The definition of empathy is the ability to understand and share the feelings of others.

What I’ve found, is there are people who do this at a much higher ability than others (often labeled “empath’s”) as well as those in the world who lack it, and often find that those who are able to fully empathize with others, are the ones that get hurt more in the process. If you are someone who is empathetic, this article will provide you an important tool to protecting yourself from unwanted energy. If you aren’t empathetic, I encourage you to continue to read on as you may also learn a tool that can also help you.

What I’ve learned from various research among books, articles, and following spiritual and natural healers on social media, is that about 15 percent of people classify as highly sensitive. Usually, we label these individuals, “empath’s. But that isn’t entirely true. These people are really good at showing empathy yes, but it’s their sensitivity to feeling everything so vividly and deeply, plus at a more intense level than the norm that separates them from everyone else. Often these people are the ones who are always being drained of their energy. They take on the energy of other people, often at the expense of their own harm. Doing this, mostly without fully recognizing it, is harmful to the body also at a physical level. It’s no coincidence that there is a correlation to empaths developing some type of health disorder or auto immune disease in life because of the stress of feeling so much negative toxic energy from others. That is why I became so interested in this topic during the last few months. Learning about myself, understanding I classify as being highly sensitive, and learning how to deal with toxic unwanted energy has been a life saver that I want to pass on so you too can start to heal and protect yourself.

One of the problems is not being fully prepared to “shield” oneself from toxic negative energy. I know you know what it is. For example, have you ever walked into a room where you could sense there was a argument or fight? How did that room feel? Heavy? Weird? Awkward? Sense of unease? Yes, all of that is correct. That is your body’s ability to read energy.

(Sidenote: Without getting too far into left field, the science is that we’re all made up of matter and this matter is simply energy. The words we say and even our thoughts are made up of this energy. Speak positive and thinking good thoughts will have you living life at a higher frequency. Speak negative, complain, and thinking negative thoughts will have you living at a lower frequency. Those people who are living at a higher frequency generally have good health and live a great quality of life. The opposite can be true for those living at a lower frequency. People fluctuate between the two energies all the time. The key is realizing what frequency you are at, change it to a higher frequency, and consistently trying to maintain that.)

So let’s say you work or live in an environment where it is surrounded by people who are living at a lower frequency. (These people can be easily pointed out, they are often the ones that you feel suck the energy right out of you”.) Going into this environment on a daily basis is harmful to your health, but there is a helpful tool that can protect you from this energy!

I’m going to give you a solution that I learned through a book I read, “Energy Healing” written by Kris Ferraro. (She wasn’t the originator, this tool has been around since ancient times and can be found in various books about eastern medicine.) She states that this simple tool to equip you is called “shielding”. Yes, a shield like a spartan warrior would use to protect them in battle. (Or the one Captain America uses.)

What you need to do is imagine a 3 foot bubble forming around your entire body. You really have to visualize it and imagine the shield is building around you. This can be done by first closing your eyes for one minute, and relaxing the body by focusing solely on your breath. Once you are relaxed, on each exhale, start the shield or bubble first extending from your heart. On each next exhale, visualize the bubble getting bigger and bigger until it is fully formed into your protective shield. (I like to think of mine as the ones Wakanda uses to protect their land. Second marvel movie reference in case you’re counting).

Once you’ve done this, the next thing to do is to repeat an affirmation consisting of resisting negative energy, and allowing positive energy in. An affirmation is the state of affirming, or using words to state something exists or is true. Using an affirmation like, “This shield will protect me from unwanted negative energy, and it will only allow positive loving energy in. Thank you for your protection” helps strengthen the ability of your shield.

When you get good at this, you won’t need to breathe and relax and make it a huge process. Saying in your mind or out loud but quietly, “shield up” or whatever else comes to mind will do the trick.

Teachers, this also works with challenging students! Once those students realize they can’t get through YOUR shield, you can start actively attacking their wall with love and guidance that they’ve resisted. But that’s an entirely different topic.

What I’m still learning through this practice is it will take time for your shield to develop its strength. The more you practice and better you get at visualizing, this will greatly enhance the effectiveness of your shield.

Now that you are equipped with this knowledge and skill I sincerely hope that it helps you and that you pass it on to anyone else who may need it.

Look for my next post, where I will write about effective ways to restore and even improve your energy to help you live and maintain that higher frequency.

Have a great day, and happy shielding. 🧘🏻‍♂️😎🤙

When it’s time to be selfish

This summer has been amazing.  It’s been relaxing, exciting and fun, with some small periods of stress sprinkled in the mix.  Two bachelor parties out of state, two stags I helped throw, one wedding including the best man’s speech for my twin bro (yes, I have a twin, and yes, my speech was phenomenal), and to top it off, some serious improvements on myself.  Oh yeah.  BIG TIME improvements. To the naked eye, they may not be as big, but to me, they’ve represented a shift in my viewpoint of what being happy truly means.  And you know what that is, being God damn selfish (sorry Mom I know you hate when I curse). Let me explain.

My entire life I have been a people pleaser.  I am a “go with the flow” type person, super laid back, the type to want to just have good vibes and avoid conflict.  Growing up this turned me into a “Yes man”, always wanting to do the right thing, to never let the other person down, to seek that sense of approval.  I think this view also represents the current state of a majority of people who use social media.  We are always seeking some type of validation for our posts, whether its on our main feed, our stories, whatever the case may be.  I myself also fall into this mix, and throughout my adult life, I’ve restrained from some of the posts I may or may not have put because I was afraid that it wouldn’t get that “approval” I was subconsciously seeking.   I don’t know what finally switched, it could have been a variety of factors, but sometime during the last few months, heck even the last year, I started being selfish.  Selfish with my thoughts.  Selfish with my communication.  Selfish with my time. Selfish with what I would say “Yes” too. Selfish with what I would post. Everything.

Here’s what I started to notice.  Freedom.  Freedom from the people who would take advantage of me. Freedom from my thoughts of any self-doubt.  Freedom from the opinion of others.  Freedom from the forced validation and competition of social media.  I started actually LIVING for me. No fear. No competition. Just doing what was right and best for ME. And in doing this, some of my passions that have been “dormant” or almost “hiding” have started to reemerge.  New passion and career paths have started to motivate me to new goals. I’m excited at everything I plan to accomplish within the next five years.

Heck, even in writing this, I feel back to my true creative self. I started this small blog because one I always wanted to help people, but two, because I LOVE TO FUCKING WRITE (sorry again Mom but the “f” word was needed in that sentence). So here I am again, being selfish in not only this blog post, but in how I’m spending my Sunday afternoon. I’m eating a salad, I’m drinking a seltzer, and I’m sharing my thoughts with the world (or to the 20 people who actually decide to read this), and yes, I couldn’t be happier.

Peace be the journey,

-Derek

(Always have to throw in a movie reference) 🤙

You’re alive…

Good morning, and happy Sunday! The sun is shining (in Connecticut at least), you’re alive and you’re breathing, life is good.

Sometimes it’s these little things you need to remind yourself to be thankful for. Today was one of those mornings in which I had to do the same.

It’s been a while since I’ve wrote about my auto-immune diseases and even though I’ve made great strides this last year, today was a morning which one hit me square in the face. Last night I ended up eating some small treats, and despite them being gluten and nut free, it had milk and lots of sugar. If you’re not familiar with certain aspects of nutrition, sugar and dairy are the devil for people with auto-immune diseases. They are triggers of inflammation, and can cause flare-ups with certain people depending on how their bodies react to them. This morning as I woke up I knew immediately that I screwed up. My body was so stiff it took me 15 minutes longer to get out of bed. Once out of bed, I quickly saw both the back of my hands, my forearms, arms, and back had a large rash. In appearance it looks similar to that of a heat rash or hives, but for me it was a common symptom with those who have psoriatic arthritis. (One of the two auto-immune diseases I was diagnosed with two years ago).

After dropping the kids off at the pool (get it? 😂) and washing my face I went downstairs and had a large glass of water. (Drinking water right upon waking has tremendous benefits, and I will write a post about that soon). Once finishing hydrating myself I went into my stretching, foam rolling,and mobility exercises. Sunday are my days where I love to go to the gym and devote myself to a full body workout and this morning wasn’t going to stop me from that.

As I went through my workout I devoted more time spent between my exercises actively stretching to keep my joints and body fluid. This past year I’ve been blessed with a great team of chiropractors (Damato’s in Newington, CT) and physical therapists (John Odriscoll at Symmetry in Portland, CT) who have given me the tools and strategies to get stronger while focusing on building the core and maintaining proper form.

Once my workout was over, I hit the sauna, cooled off in the pool, then spent 5 more minutes in the hot tub. This felt great on my body and am so grateful I go to a gym that houses these.

As I’m writing this, my body, especially my joints feel amazing. The rash on my hands, arms and back is almost all gone, and I’m ready to tackle the rest of the day.

The point is, we all have moments where we will have setbacks in life. We can look at them as roadblocks, or challenges, the choice is ultimately ours. I pray that anyone reading this, especially those with auto-immune diseases, to not give up, to keep fighting, and keep winning the day. Remember, you’re alive, and breathing.

The Heart of a Lion.

“A lion sleeps in the heart of every brave man”.

First off, happy new year! I hope 2018 brings you a year filled with love, joy, health, wealth, and so much freaking happiness!

Now on to my second post of Drob’s school of thoughts.

Disclaimer. This post is intended to inform and help others, but is NOT meant to diagnose any health issues. If you have symptoms that seem similar, please take the time to get checked by a doctor. (Although as you will read,some doctors aren’t always right).

To understand how I got to this point, I need to take you back several years ago, August 2011.

I was coming off a full day of work at a popular summer camp in the middle of the woods. As the day was winding down, I noticed three weird dots on my sock, including one tiny spec lingering right above my ankle on my shin. As I bent down to take a closer look I viciously swiped off what happened to be 3 ticks.  This was before I knew anything about what diseases ticks could spread, and just went about the rest of the day without a second thought. Less than a week later, I had flu like symptoms that lasted a few days, and was told it was just a bad sinus infection.  I told a walk in physician about the ticks, and he checked my shin for any circular rashes indicating being infected with Lyme. “A circular rash occurs in approximately 70-80% of infected persons and begins at the site of a tick bite”. (CDC, 2015).  Since I didn’t have any rash, the physician told me I probably did not have Lyme and I could rest easy.

My flu like symptoms did go away, however during that fall season I did start to experience routine dizziness, unexplainable fatigue, pale skin, and bad pain around my joints. At first, I did not tell anyone about these symptoms.  I kept living my life and dismissed them thinking they would go away on their own.  They didn’t.

On-going sinus issues led me back to my primary doctor who prescribed me more antibiotics.  After a week of the generic “z-pack” (A common antibiotic called Azithromycin usually given to people who have mild bacterial infections), my sinus symptoms did not go away.  I also noticed that my throat began to hurt and because of the joint pain I finally admitted to feeling, was recommended to a rheumatologist.  (A rheumatologist is a doctor who specializes in the detection of musculoskeletal disease and systemic autoimmune conditions commonly referred to rheumatic diseaseshttps://www.rheumatology.org/I-Am-A/Patient-Caregiver/Health-Care-Team/What-is-a-Rheumatologist )

I was given an extensive blood test as well as a throat culture, and diagnosed with strep throat. I took strong antibiotics (Amoxicillin) for two weeks, but nothing improved.  I was worse.  I did another blood test (because who doesn’t like getting stabbed in the vein all the time?) and was told I had the Lyme bacteria in my blood.  My rheumatologist then prescribed me a month supply of antibiotics, as well as steroids, Prednisone, to combat Lyme and its symptoms.

One month went by and I did start to feel a tad better.  Another blood test confirmed that the Lyme was still in my blood, however my rheumatologist explained to me that this was normal for once you become infected with Lyme, it never leaves your blood. He also informed me that the month of antibiotics should have killed all and any lingering Lyme bacteria and that all of my symptoms should go away with it.

So here is where the story should turn right? Ha! Not even close! I’m just getting started.

Of note. That’s roughly 8 weeks of antibiotics in a 16 week window. If anyone is doing the math at home, this isn’t very good for gut health huh? More on that soon.

A few months pass by and I am still experiencing joint pain, except more severe, fatigue, dizziness, and anxiety.  I make a call back to my rheumatologist and he agrees to do some more blood tests for stuff he may have missed.  Nothing comes up, and I’ll never forget what he then tells me. “Nothing is wrong Derek, you are fine. It’s all in your head. It’s probably stress”.

“Probably stress”. Ha! Are you serious? Excuse my language but get the fuck out of here with that BS. I walked out of that office that day so miserable, so angry, and so defeated, I did not know where else to turn.

Ok I lied. I did have someplace to turn, another doctor that was. Severe stomach pain, difficulty digesting food, and weight loss were some new symptoms I began to experience which led me to a gastroenterologist, or stomach specialist.  Maybe this could be explaining all of my health problems I thought? One could dream right.

Nope. It explained some of them, not all. That just led to more diagnoses, blood tests, and antibiotics.  (At least my CVS card was getting good usage during this time!) I had what’s called H. pylori. “H. pylori is a type of bacteria that can live in your digestive tract and attack the stomach lining” (https://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/h-pylori-helicobacter-pylori).

One month of antibiotics and anti acid medicine later one would finally think this had to be it right? Wrong again. I didn’t get better.  More blood tests and a new breath test confirmed I did not have the H. pylori any longer in my blood. But I was still experiencing bad stomach pain and even nausea while eating.  So, on to more testing. I was given a standard biopsy, you know, the one where they stick a camera down your throat and check the stomach and intestines. Pretty cool right? The biopsy showed an ulcer and inflammation in my small intestine, however I was told it was not Celiac’s. “Celiac disease is an autoimmune disorder where the ingestion of gluten leads to damage of the small intestine” (http://celiac.org). Since I did have inflammation, I was told it could be possibly food allergies or insensitivities, and should look into getting tested for that.

Great.  Just what I need.  More tests and more doctors.  (Glad I had good insurance).

In this time frame afterwards, I can’t pin point when exactly, because of the continuous joint pain and other symptoms I mentioned earlier I was referred to the Department of Chronic Diseases at the local hospital.  More blood tests were given, and for one point in time, I had a specialist tell me that based on the blood test results that there was a high probability I had HIV or Cancer.  I am not making that up. That was exactly what was said to me.  They explained to me my results, the possible culprits, and told me I had to come back in two weeks to retest specifically for the HIV and AIDS, as well as compare my blood cell counts to the first test I took. (Talk about the most stressful two weeks of my entire life).

Thankfully, everything came back negative, meaning I didn’t have Cancer, or HIV. Nothing out of the ordinary was really found. All that was wrong was that my white blood cell count was relatively low, but still on the normal side of the spectrum of blood cell counts. (In my own research, a low white blood cell count is a common symptom of people who experience chronic Lyme or autoimmune diseases). The specialist did acknowledge that I had Lyme in my blood, but told me they did not treat for it as they did not recognize it as a chronic illness. Yeah, countless people are making these Lyme symptoms up right, doc? You got to be shitting me. I didn’t say that. I wanted too.

See a trend here yet?

After seeing the specialist at the hospital I knew I needed a change.  I needed to find an actual doctor that could test for everything and also BELIEVE me when I told him/her the symptoms I was experiencing, especially related to Lyme.  I stumbled upon an Osteopathic doctor close by, who was also part of ILADS (International Lyme and Associated Diseases Society). Every osteopathic doctor is different.  In general, these doctors believe in a whole body approach to healing and self-care, and look for alternative treatments that aren’t used by regular physicians.  I was ready for the change.

We get down to business and do an extensive blood test.  (No I did not have a blood test card where the 10th one is free). The appointment lasted close to an hour and a half, and for the first time I finally felt understood.  Blood tests confirmed I had Lyme, as well as other vitamin and mineral deficiencies that were similar in other patients who had what he called Chronic Lyme.  He gave me an accurate description to what was going on in my body, including why I had the various stomach issues I began to experience months before my visit. I found out I had a yeast overgrowth, and in response my body had become allergic to it. This is common in people who take tons of antibiotics in a short period of time, due to the extensive destruction of the good bacteria in the body’s digestive system.

Treatment for the yeast overgrowth would be long and challenging.  I did a complete overhaul of my diet taking out wheat and dairy as well as restricting my sugar intake.  I began to take probiotic supplements and stopped drinking beer and most alcohol. (I continued to drink Tequila for close to a year before finally giving up all alcohol for good). This difficult but necessary change in my diet completely transformed my body. Over the next several months, I lost close to 30 pounds. My stomach health did improve during this time however, the entire process that had already gone on for close to two years began taking its toll on my mental psyche, especially with my joint pain never improving.

(Nope, I’m still not done. I’m getting there though keep reading!)

2012-2013

During this time frame, I still experienced chronic pain in roughly every joint in my body.  I also began experiencing severe pain in the back, hip, and neck areas. In addition to my new diet, the chronic pain and fatigue was so bad that I did not work out or lift weights for an entire year. If I had any energy or motivation I would drag myself to the gym to walk on the treadmill or outside. That was it. For a full year. This was torture for someone who loved working out as much as I did before all these Health challenges started. Pain was so bad that normal things throughout the day caused me considerable stress and pain. Bending down to pick up a pot, walking up stairs, reaching up for a dish, even trying to find a comfortable position sleeping was difficult. It was not a fun time frame for me.

This period is where I was at my lowest mentally.  I felt alone.  I didn’t talk to friends or family much about what I was experiencing early on because I felt misunderstood.  I was too stubborn to reach out for help.  Nothing made me happy and I routinely cried myself to sleep.  I was so low during this time period that I often contemplated suicide. I had no outlets, couldn’t workout like I used too, had to stop playing baseball, and lost all confidence in who I was as a person. Some days I would wake up scared because I honestly didn’t know if I could make it through another day. Looking back now I realize how incredibly stupid not telling anyone about that was, and am very grateful to have made it through. However, if you or someone you know has suicidal thoughts please talk to someone and get help! Do not bottle it up or fight it on your own! Reach out to someone. Anyone. There’s always people willing to help. One of many blessings I was able to find from being at my lowest during this time was being grateful for the simple joys we as people often take for granted everyday. Being grateful and taking things day by day helped me get through this period and led me out of my depressive state. But I’ll save that for another post. Back to the story.

2013-2014

A series of X rays, MRI’s, and Cat scans back with my rheumatologist would give me the diagnosis of degenerative disc disease. It was also indicated to me that I had early onset arthritis in my neck, and had disc narrowing in my mid back.  To my rheumatologist and back specialist/neurologist I was also now referred too, this wasn’t abnormal, especially being a former college athlete who played collegiate sports as well as competitive high school football.  To deal with the consistent and sometimes excruciating pain, I was given cortisone shots, nsaids (Celebrex), steroids (more prednisone) and nerve blockages. The nerve blockages worked the best, and would give me months of some relief, yet somehow the pain would always seem to find its way back. Just like those talking animals. You know, the cat and two dogs who eventually found their way back “home” when lost in the wilderness? (You didn’t think I would go an entire post without throwing in a classic 90’s movie reference did you?)

Anyways, months after my last nerve blockage more X-rays from my rheumatologist determined that my arthritis from my degenerative disc disease progressed a whole lot faster than the norm.  In about one year, my back aged considerably.  “You have the lower back of a 55-year-old male, Derek”, was the exact quote I remember being said to me.  Um, I’m only 27. How the fuck is that possible? I didn’t say that. I thought it though. He also told me I shouldn’t lift weights, and that running, jumping, and any physical activity could antagonize the symptoms and make them worse.  Great news, doc.  (More sarcasm if you couldn’t tell).

I did find out however for the first time that I might have an autoimmune disease as the main culprit.  But before he could give me some form of treatment or give me an accurate diagnosis, he had to make sure I didn’t have anything that could affect possible treatment.

(Seriously, at this point, what else could I possibly have? I’ve had everything in the freaking medical book. Shit, I could write the medical book at this point).

Turns out I tested positive for Tb, or Tuberculosis.  This was no mistake, as I had to do a second test at a different blood testing site to confirm this diagnosis.

How the fuck did I get Tb? Is this a sick joke? Not funny God, NOT FUNNY.

On a serious note, still to this day I have no idea how I contracted it. One could stipulate that working in a poor school district that early in the school year a parent could have sent her child to school without first getting their shots in time and somehow it was spread to me. (Just an educated hypothesis).

2014-2015

How do you treat Tb you ask? With a year of freaking Antibiotics.  Yup.  A full fucking year.  I was referred to the Health department and a given a fresh supply of medicine every month.  Because of the excessive use of the medicine, possible side effects included kidney disease and liver failure in which I had to have routine blood testing and monthly weigh ins.  (This is where I officially gave up all alcohol for good and couldn’t be more happier to do so. Bye bye hang overs). What stinks during this time was my stomach was doing well, so well, that I had implemented some yeast and wheat products in my diet, sparingly at least, with no real huge digestive issues.  But as soon as I began the medicine for the Tb, many of my digestive woes came back. Similar to Drake running through the six with his woes I assume.  (That was a music reference if you did not catch that.) I lost about 10-15 more pounds during this entire year of being on the medication and If you’re following correctly, about 40 pounds of weight lost total from when I was at my biggest.  (What a time. To be alive.) Another music reference.  I’m on fire.  Alicia keys. Ok, I’ll stop. For most people, weight loss is a good thing. But for a tall, lanky, former athlete who worked as hard as me to gain weight and add muscle in my early 20’s, more weight loss was the last thing I wanted.

One year goes by and the medicine did its job of taking away the Tb. I got my letter that said I completed treatment and that if it comes up on blood tests again its fine and I should not be experiencing any effects in the future. Ok great. That’s done. But I still did not have an answer for the constant pain and stiffness across my body.

Deep breath in. Exhale out. Relax. You’re almost finished.

2015-2016

I quickly make an appointment back with my rheumatologist, in which we did more X-rays and blood tests. Finally, after about 5 years, I get a diagnosis that could finally explain some of the symptoms.  Ankylosing Spondylitis, and Psoriatic Arthritis. I had symptoms of both, including rashes that I sometimes got (and still get) on my fingers, hands, elbows, arms, back, and knees. (Check my Instagram where I have shorts on.  They most commonly look like scraped knees but they are symptoms of psoriasis, an auto immune disease that targets the skin). Both diseases target the spine, cause chronic inflammation, stiffness, and arthritis, specifically of the spine, and any attachments to the spine. I have to go yearly for checkups including breath tests, as the ribs can restrict breathing because of inflammation.  I also have to take yearly X rays and get other tests done to monitor the health of my spine.

2017 – Now

Over the hump. (Finally).

I now take a low dosage pill, Otezla, twice a day to combat the two auto immune diseases.  In addition, I eat a predominantly healthy diet consisting of a lot of fruits, vegetables, fish, lean meat, and brown rice. I take supplements of turmeric, tart cherry, beet powder, probiotics, and stomach enzymes to help with inflammation, pain, and maintain optimal gut health.

In addition to eating healthy, there is a lot I do to maintain the health of my body, especially my spine.  Because of the autoimmune diseases, my muscles are in a constant state of tension. Teaching every day and being on my feet throughout the week is a huge challenge for me, as I often come home tired and sore.

I see a chiropractor at least twice a week for regular adjustments, a massage therapist weekly, a Physical Therapist, and exercise on my own at least once a week.  Hot tubs are a God send, and I am grateful my gym has one as sometimes soaking in a hot tub is the only relief that is suitable after a long day of teaching.

Mentally is no different. I practice different forms of meditation daily including the use of various frequencies, affirmations, and deep breathing techniques. I have a social circle that is filled with many positive and supportive people who inspire me more than they can believe.  I whole heartedly believe in surrounding myself with positive people who contribute to my well being, if not, they are not in my life. My family is my rock, and I don’t know what I’d do without their continued support.  (Love you fam)

Doing all of these things helps me live and breathe a positive and healthy lifestyle.  I live with so much empathy and compassion for people I can’t believe how I lived my life any other way prior to all of this happening.

So why am I finally telling everyone this now?

Because for the first time I am not embarrassed by my extensive health history.

I am not defined by my symptoms.  I am not defined by my past.  I am defined by however the fuck I want to be defined as.  I want to help every single person who has their own challenges in life.  I want everyone reading this to know that no matter how dark, how difficult, how challenging life gets to NOT give up.  It gets better! I promise you that. I do have set backs, and I’m not always pain free, but it will not defeat me. Never. I’m too strong for that.

A Turkish proverb is credited with the saying, “A lion sleeps in the heart of every brave man”.

Well Turkish proverb, I thank you. I also thank God, the Universe, and whoever else is out there for awakening the lion that was asleep in my heart. With the help of this post, I only hope to try to awaken the lion asleep in yours.  Drob out.

The Intro

The ability to help people has always provided me with a sense of accomplishment that few things in life can deliver.

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“Allow me to reintroduce myself, my name is HOV, H to the O-V…”
No, no it’s not. It’s Derek, or “D-rob” for short. But you should know that already. And if you don’t, please stop reading now, and go on over to the “Menu” and click “Who is D-rob”. This will give you a better insight to my backstory and who I am as a person.

Ok, back to the original program. Excuse the music lyric. My mind is 80% movie quotes and song lyrics. If you love both movies and music, there is a great chance of you enjoying these references. If not, well, um, I don’t know what to tell you but you’re seriously missing out.
The reason I started this blog was because of this incredible passion and drive to write. I began to formulate thoughts and opinions and ideas that are simply too illustrious to be shared in the 280 characters Twitter now allows, or for the ever unpopular and scrutinized long “Facebook status rants”, that only opens yourself to comments from people who you haven’t talked too since 11th grade Chemistry.
My second and more important reason I started this blog was to help people. Helping people has been in my blood for as long as I can remember. Helping others was the reason why I became a teacher, and will be sharing with you in posts later down the road some wild and crazy stories I have that will bring you a broader sense of appreciation to what us educators encounter on a daily basis. The ability to help people has always provided me with a sense of accomplishment that few things in life can deliver. (Well besides great pizza, that always delivers).
My next post, “The Heart of a Lion”, will be my most challenging to write. I am going to take you through my past journey through the Health world as a series of illnesses led me across a path I thought I would never had to travel. That path transformed my body physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and I strongly believe that path was given to me so I could help other people who are facing similar battles in their own lives. Remember, we are all in this together and…
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“…Only God can judge me, so I’m gone, either love me, or leave me alone” – Jay-Z.